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- Title: Guitar World Online / Kurt Cobain
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- Continued from page two
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- COBAIN: Probably `84. I keep trying to get this story right chronologically,
- and I just can't. My first exposure to punk rock came when Creem started
- covering the Sex Pistols' U.S. tour. I would read about them and just
- fantasize about how amazing it would be to hear their music and to be a part
- of it. But I was like 11 years old, and I couldn't possibly have followed
- them on the tour. The thought of just going to Seattle-which was only 200
- miles away-was impossible. My parents took me to Seattle probably three times
- in my life, from what I can remember, and those were on family trips.
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- After that, I was always trying to find punk rock, but of course they didn't
- have it in our record shop in Aberdeen. The first punk rock I was able to buy
- was probably Devo and Oingo Boingo and stuff like that; that stuff finally
- leaked into Aberdeen many years after the fact.
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- Then, finally, in 1984 a friend of mine named Buzz Osborne [Melvins
- singer/guitarist] made me a couple of compilation tapes with Black Flag and
- Flipper, everything, all the most popular punk rock bands, and I was
- completely blown away. I'd finally found my calling. That very same day, I
- cut my hair short. I would lip-sync to those tapes-I played them every
- day-and it was the greatest thing. I'd already been playing guitar by then
- for a couple of years, and I was trying to play my own style of punk rock, or
- what I imagined that it was. I knew it was fast and had a lot of distortion.
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- Punk expressed the way I felt socially and politically. There were so many
- things going on at once. It expressed the anger that I felt-the alienation.
- It also helped open my eyes to what I didn't like about metal bands like
- Aerosmith and Led Zeppelin. While I really did enjoy, and still do enjoy,
- some of the melodies those bands have written, I suddenly realized I didn't
- like their sexist attitudes-the way that they just wrote about their dicks
- and having sex. That stuff bored me.
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- GW: When did you start to think about sexism? Was it an outgrowth of your
- interest in punk?
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- COBAIN: No, it was before that. I could never find any good male friends, so
- I ended up hanging out with the girls a lot, and I just felt that they
- weren't being treated equally and they weren't treated with respect. I hated
- the way Aberdeen treated women in general-they were just totally oppressed.
- The words "bitch" and "cunt" were totally common, you'd hear them all the
- time. But it took me many years after the fact to realize those were the
- things that were bothering me. I was just starting to understand what was
- pissing me off so much, and in the last couple of years of high school, I
- found punk rock and it all came together. I finally understood that I wasn't
- retarded, you know?
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- GW: Did you ever have problems with people thinking you were gay?
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- COBAIN: Yeah. Even I thought that I was gay. Although I never experimented
- with it, I thought that might be the solution to my problem. I had a gay
- friend, and that was the only time that I ever experienced real confrontation
- from people. Like I said, for so many years they were basically afraid of me,
- but when I started hanging out with this guy, Myer Loftin, who was known to
- be gay, they started giving me a lot of shit, trying to beat me up and stuff.
- Then my mother wouldn't allow me to be friends with him anymore because she's
- homophobic.
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- GW: So did you stop?
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- COBAIN: Yeah. It was real devastating because finally I'd found a male friend
- who I could actually talk to and be affectionate with, and I was told I
- couldn't hang out with him anymore. Around that same time, I was putting all
- the pieces of the puzzle together. He played a big role in that.
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- Stay tuned for parts 2 & 3. Next month--same bat channel, same bat time.
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